Yesterday, my day was filled with cravings. I wanted a nice, cheesy, baked Italian sub; Chinese food; Soda; cherry and/or lemon meringue pie; tacos....I wanted everything...and lots of it! I was at work thinking about all this stuff. I hadn't eaten breakfast. I brought an apple with me, but it was in my cupholder in my car. I work at a pizza place and pizza did not sound appealing at all. I wanted all the things I hadn't had in awhile and couldn't take my mind off of food. When lunchtime came at work, I had a small serving of their very "blah" lasagna and a slice of some kinda of dried-up, left-over pizza from the buffet. But, before I put my dishes away, I saw some fresh cherry pizzert and grabbed a big 'ol slice. I don't really like the stuff much, but figured if I dipped it in chocolate pudding, it would be amazing! So, I put some of that on my plate too! Actually, the pudding was great - and the pizzert was still icky.
Later, at home, I was hanging around doing nothing-at-all when my daughter's friends came over. My girl child told me they were hungry so I made dinner. All I fixed was some Hamburger Helper, corn (w/butter) and crescent rolls (w/lots more butter). I didn't bother to weigh or measure anything and really enjoyed the meal, actually. I didn't care that it "might" be over my point limit. I didn't care that (historically) that sorta attitude can easily set me off on a binge. It tasted GREAT....indulgent....and that was good. I had been so stressed out in the previous days that it felt good to just be FREE - to not care - to "give up". To top it all off, we drove to the ice cream parlor and, "since I've already blown it anyway", I got a double scoop ice cream in a waffle cone! I'm not even sure if it was good or not because I ate it so quickly (as though making it disappear would somehow erase the fact that it happened).
I went to bed later, still feeling no remorse and purposefully not putting ANY of todays foods down in my points tracker. My intent was to just take the day as a loss and pick up today where I left off.
When I woke up, my attitude was different. I regretted what I'd done. I really DO want this weight off and I really DO care how I treat my body. I'm worth the work it's going to take to get this off. Yes, I must not feel deprived to succeed. That's why I chose WW in the first place, because I knew it would allow me to have the things I like to eat. Before I had anything to eat today, I sat at my computer and listed EVERY bite I put into my mouth yesterday. When the list was complete, it showed that I was 8.5 points over my weekly points allowance! There's nothing I can do to change that today and I'm disappointed with myself for what I did. But, it's done. I can only learn and go forward. Possibly setting my weight loss goals back an entire week was surely not worth that ice cream! I've got to make the effort to plan my daily meals. In doing that, I can satisfy my cravings, get all my nutrients, maintain emotional well-being, and continue losing weight. This can be so gooooooooood! I KNOW I can do this! Today's a new day.
Later, at home, I was hanging around doing nothing-at-all when my daughter's friends came over. My girl child told me they were hungry so I made dinner. All I fixed was some Hamburger Helper, corn (w/butter) and crescent rolls (w/lots more butter). I didn't bother to weigh or measure anything and really enjoyed the meal, actually. I didn't care that it "might" be over my point limit. I didn't care that (historically) that sorta attitude can easily set me off on a binge. It tasted GREAT....indulgent....and that was good. I had been so stressed out in the previous days that it felt good to just be FREE - to not care - to "give up". To top it all off, we drove to the ice cream parlor and, "since I've already blown it anyway", I got a double scoop ice cream in a waffle cone! I'm not even sure if it was good or not because I ate it so quickly (as though making it disappear would somehow erase the fact that it happened).
I went to bed later, still feeling no remorse and purposefully not putting ANY of todays foods down in my points tracker. My intent was to just take the day as a loss and pick up today where I left off.
When I woke up, my attitude was different. I regretted what I'd done. I really DO want this weight off and I really DO care how I treat my body. I'm worth the work it's going to take to get this off. Yes, I must not feel deprived to succeed. That's why I chose WW in the first place, because I knew it would allow me to have the things I like to eat. Before I had anything to eat today, I sat at my computer and listed EVERY bite I put into my mouth yesterday. When the list was complete, it showed that I was 8.5 points over my weekly points allowance! There's nothing I can do to change that today and I'm disappointed with myself for what I did. But, it's done. I can only learn and go forward. Possibly setting my weight loss goals back an entire week was surely not worth that ice cream! I've got to make the effort to plan my daily meals. In doing that, I can satisfy my cravings, get all my nutrients, maintain emotional well-being, and continue losing weight. This can be so gooooooooood! I KNOW I can do this! Today's a new day.
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