Nervousness

This was a very nerve-wrecking day.  First, I've been considering a job change and woke up this morning with the intent of calling the potential new employer to try to schedule an interview.  I got the interview.  Next, the interview itself went smoothly, but I felt quite a bit of anxiety afterward because when I went to the interview I was anticipating being offered a job on the spot (I had already met with the man twice before and he had all-but-offered me the job previously).  Instead, I was asked to "think about it" and let him know in a week if I was interested  (I had already given it tons of thought and was sure before I even him this morning to schedule the appointment).  Anyway...I took home the application he sent with me and completed it, attached a resume and a cover letter outlining the reasons I would be interested in the position and dropped it back by his office on my way to work.  An hour or so later he called to ask when I could start!  I told him I wanted to give my current employer the proper 2 weeks notice.  That started the anxiety of how/when to approach my boss with the news.  Later in the night, I had a not-so-pleasant encounter with one of the hotel guests.  I handled the situation as calmly and as professionally as I could while being antagonized and talked to like trash.  Needless to say, as well as I was able to keep myself composed, it still did not turn out well.  So, besides the event itself...the anxiety of how my boss might feel about the situation once he hears about it in the morning began to creep up on me.  After work, I composed my resignation letter and now am nervous with anticipation of presenting the letter to my boss tomorrow afternoon at work.

I wrote all of this to say, that anxiety has a real impact on my ability to follow my eating plan.  While all this was going on, I ate the following:

• Several (3 or 4) pieces of pizza (guest shared with me so I ate that instead of the "actually delicious" frozen meal I had brought to work with me for my planned meal)
• 3 or 4 cans of soda (pizza makes me thirsty - even though I had sugarless drink mixes in my purse to mix with water, I reached for sodas instead)
• 2 Fiber Plus bars (just because they were sitting on my desk where I was writing my resignation letter)

And now I'm sitting here with hives.  I'm not sure if the hives were caused by the overindulgence of chocolate (which I've had allergic reactions to before) or to my being nervous.  Most likely it's a combination of both. 

 

The point is...I began my day on target.  I had a healthy meal before work and took point-friendly foods with me to work.  But the more "nervous"I got, I began to binge.  

I have yet to conquer this addiction.  *sigh*