I'm stressed out.  I'm tired.  No.  In fact, I'm exhausted.  I can't pull myself together to get back on track.  I've hurt my knee....so walking is out of the question.  I'm workin' a bizzillion hours a day (or, so it seems) so I don't even want to THINK about going grocery shopping.  I've gone back to drinking TONS of soda.  I'm barely eating...and what I am eating is pure garbage.  I'm so swollen and puffy that I feel like I've never lost a pound.  I feel horrible.  I'm not depressed....but it is depressing to see that I'm so far off track right now.  Mentally, I'm just not even sure I can do this right now.  I feel like there is already sooooooooooooooo much on my plate and I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed by some of it.  I'm trying to do an EXCELLENT job at work (and I think that I am) but it leaves me no energy to do anything else.  I'm not a WONDER WOMAN.  I'm just one person and I can't seem to stay on top of everything.  Right now, I feel like I'm failing myself (again).  The worst thing is.....I still don't "want" to be fat all my life....but wonder if I should just surrender to the idea that I have to choose just ONE thing that I can be good at to succeed at anything at all.