What Kind Of Friend Will You Be?

Again, I gained.  And I sat in my Weight Watchers meeting, tears welling up in my eyes, heart sinking, only partially listening to the leader and only slightly interested in the topic.  For 45 minutes a war raged inside my head...the enemy bearing my name whispering words of defeat and humiliation while the victor in me held ground and searched for new determination to fight for my right to health and happiness and to my personal image of beauty.  And I stayed thru the meeting, proud of myself for having went.

Later, while cooking dinner and washing dishes, my Spirit gently asked me, "Would you ever talk to anyone else the way you talk to yourself?"  And I stood there, hands immersed in the warm, sudsy water, and thought about the question just asked of me.  Of course I wouldn't.  I would NEVER speak to anyone in the manner I speak to myself.  I would never tell someone that they were a failure...or that it was hopeless for them so they may as well give up...or that they shouldn't bother...that they would never succeed...that they are just destined to stay that way and to stop trying.

And then my Spirit asked a second question.  "If a friend came to you, in the condition that you have found yourself in, what would you say to them?"

And I replied....."You are worthy.  You can do this.  All you have to do is keep going.  Don't stop.  Look at how beautiful you are.  This will take time.  Don't be so hard on yourself.  It's only a set-back, not failure.  Don't be afraid.  Consider your choices wisely.  Keep track of what you're eating.  Note the little changes that you're making.  They will all add up.  You have my support.  I love you and I'm proud of you!"