Well....It's been about 6 weeks since my last post. And now I'm back to write because I realize that writing is my only salvation when it comes to my weight issues. Writing helps me to be honest...and confront my feeling and to weed through the 1/2 truths and complete lies I tell myself...justifying the condition of my life and the pattern of my thinking. I am fat. I'm "morbidly obese". I HAVE gotten fatter and fortyer. And I'm out of control. My compulsive overeating and inactivity (lazyness) have overtaken me. But....it ain't over 'til it's over! I absolutely cannot give up on myself. There are things I need to give myself. I deserve to be treated better than this! When I woke up this morning....the very first thought in my brain was this..."If you don't make me a priority in your life, don't be surprised when I live my life according to that fact."
You see....God speaks to us in our sleep. Councils us. Soothes us. Educates us. Enlightens us. Directs us. Loves us. He's always calling us higher...coaxing us to reach our full potential. At first...I thought this little bit of truth was about how someone/everyone else is treating me. But, truly it wasn't until JUST NOW...as I began writing this post that I realized those words were about ME...and how I don't prioritize myself. How I don't put enough value on myself. And that my actions have followed suit. WOW! I really just got this! JUST NOW!
This is why writing is so neccessary to my health....both physical and spiritual. I have neglected myself for too long.
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